So hi. Its been a really long time since I've posted and a lot as happened but that's not what this post is about.. Recently I had broke my knee and pretty much have been home the past month and half. Which leaves your thoughts wandering and can really get the best of you,and that is what this post is about. What's been on my mind a lot is that nobody is the same person you once knew and everyone grows as person. The part in the growth that takes an affect is that you realize... you can't talk to the person because their not there. This is something I've noticed more and more you tell people stuff that you think is important and want to stay between you two bu in reality and deep inside that comment, story, or just a sentence wont stay between you and will get shared with others. That's when you start to realize the person is not there but you don't want to believe that. So you still tell them stuff but now you have to filter what your saying knowing its going back to others and the trust is breaking. When that trust is breaking it's hard to keep pretending and holding on to something that's not there so you start playing make believe. There's another part to this I've been seeing a lot which is if your with that person and maybe someone else. The only thing someone can seem to tell others is how horrible you treat them or how you do this and that etc... This is the worse feeling in the world when you thought you were a nice genuine person and your joking around back and forth, But only thing they seem to repeat is how horrible and mean you are this really takes you back like woah... we are something I thought was solid.. This is the point where you know they have changed so much its almost a stranger, but then you have amazing times where its all okay. I don't know what to do... but I know it felt good to talk even in blog form, when there's know one you can truly tell things to with out it being said to the others.
Thank you reading this and letting me just vent!
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